Life's a Journey

I bought a GD book - How to Teach Your Baby to Read -- some months back. So far I never had the chance to even flip to the Acknowledgement page..well accept at the MPH some time ago. It is still there, on the side table in my room, gathering more dust each day. Since I plan to run a business from home, I should start train myself to produce a humongous will power and effort to stay awake after putting my babies to sleep. Hubby said if we were to own a business, we might be busier than we are now. I should prepare myself for that since I don't have that many months (positive thinking). With Fatin before, at least I didn't fall sleep easily after putting her to bed. With Syabil now, I couldn't even stay awake half way through feeding him. Always thought of staying awake but usually end up awaken by his next feeding cry somewhere in the middle of the night. Hmm...I guess as I get older, I get tired easier. Maybe not enough physical exercise contributes too. It is too much for ...

There's nothing I would love more than being my own boss. Of course, such a simple statement is actually a big dream plus hard work. But still it is really tempting to have a business on my own. Since I will be bonded in this company until next year, my life plan has definitely need to adjust. I have planned to leave my IT job by the age of 30 (which is like a couple of months away). So far my life milestones were not far off the target. Alhamdulillah. I still remember back in my Sociology class by Mr. Adnan in MCC. On the very first day of class, he asked us to picture ourselves 10 years from then and write down where we see we are. All these 20-year-olds started to scribble something -- a 10-year future projection of who they are and where will they be. Seated beside me was my ex, he actually peeped through my writings. And he was smiling to himself. As if what I wrote down is too much of a projection. Hmm...I guessed I am pretty much where I pictured myself to be at the age of 3...

I get envious to see other people's blogs being updated daily. It's not that I don't have anything to write, sometimes I think too much before typing anything down, end up with nothing typed at all. I made a promise to myself to just type whatever that is on my mind, and I can always amend later should I have to. Well anyway, today is just another day at the office. Nothing new. I have just signed my bonding agreement letter this morning. Just a nice way to start my Thursday morning. I feel like my loyalty to the company had to be bought. After working (serving..more likely) for this company for 6 years, they still feel they need to send me to a MS.Net Development course. They very well know that I am not doing coding anymore!!! Idiots!! I have been taking up the analyst tasks since 2003. And still they sent me to an irrelevant course just to bond me. They must have been very desperate seing other team members jumping out to other companies. Or they must have love me SO MUC...